Christian was a child that every parent would want. He was loving, caring, and always happy. Unfortunatly
we lost him last July to a unforgivable mistake made by lifeguards and staff at the local run day camp. He was there for 2
hours on his first day. While nobody was watching him, he drowned. There is not a day that goes by that I dont cry for him
at least once. god I miss him. How could anyone take him from me, he was my best friend and son.
Christian was
born on October 17th 2002. We couldnt have been happier. That gave us 2 boys in 14 months that could grow up together and
be best friends. They were best friends and his brother Cameron was there the day that he died. Cameron still talks about
him daily and tries to make us happy by saying things like he is sitting next to you or I just saw his angel. It is so hard
watching cameron without christian, he looks so alone.
This really is the hardest thing to write. He is gone forever
and we cant accept that. Why did we trust others? Why did we take him there? What if we took him there even a minute later,
would he still be here. There are so many whys and still no answers. How can we ever forgive ourselves? We trusted and it
made our son gone. How can we trust again?
So its another day without you my son. I hope and pray there is an
afterlife but I just dont know anymore. I remember you looking up at the stars and saying hi to grandma. Does she hold you
at night? I know kids are pure so maybe you could see her but my eyes are too cloudy to see anything anymore. With you gone
how can I have faith in a god that is so cruel? But I want to believe so what should I do son? If believing meens seeing you
again then I have to try. You had faith and love beyond my grasp. I cant wait to see you again but I need to stay here a while
for the others. I love you.
Why cant you be here to make our familly whole again. We are adrift without you. cameron
asks about you all the time, he can actually feel and see you. I wish I was still that pure that I could see you.
We went to Camerons first baseball game today. It was great until we figured out
Christian would have been on his team this year. No matter what we do christian will always be here. I love that and hate
it at the same time. It was so hard to enjoy the game while looking out on the field and not seeing Christian. God I hope
he is with you, please send some kind of sign..
