He is gone forever and we cant accept that. Why did we trust others? Why did we take him there?
What if we took him
there even a minute later, would he still be here. There are so many whys and still no answers.
How can we ever forgive ourselves? We trusted and it made our son gone. How can we trust again?
Christian was a child that every parent would want.
He was loving, caring, and always happy. Unfortunatly we lost him July 13th,2007 to an unforgivable mistake made
by lifeguards and staff at the local run day camp. He was there for 2 hours on his first day. While nobody was watching him,
he drowned. There is not a day that goes by that I dont cry for him at least once. god I miss him. How could anyone take him
from me, he was all of ours best friend, son, and brother.
Christian was born on October 17th 2002.
We couldnt have been happier. That gave us 2 boys in 14 months that could grow up together and be best friends. They were
best friends and his brother Cameron was there the day that he died. Cameron still talks about him daily and tries to make
us happy by saying things like he is sitting next to you or I just saw his angel. It is so hard watching cameron without christian,
he looks so alone.
This really is the hardest thing to write. He is gone forever and we cant accept that. Why did
we trust others? Why did we take him there? What if we took him there even a minute later, would he still be here. There are
so many whys and still no answers. How can we ever forgive ourselves? We trusted and it made our son gone. How can we trust
again?
So its another day without you my son. I hope and pray there is an afterlife but I just dont know anymore.
I remember you looking up at the stars and saying hi to grandma. Does she hold you at night? I know kids are pure so maybe
you could see her but my eyes are too cloudy to see anything anymore. With you gone how can I have faith in a god that is
so cruel? But I want to believe so what should I do son? If believing meens seeing you again then I have to try. You had faith
and love beyond my grasp. I cant wait to see you again but I need to stay here a while for the others. I love you.
Why cant you be here to make our familly whole again. We are adrift without you. cameron asks about you all the time, he
can actually feel and see you. I wish I was still that pure that I could see you.
We went to Camerons first baseball game today. It was great until we figured out Christian would have been on his
team this year. No matter what we do christian will always be here. I love that and hate it at the same time. It was so hard
to enjoy the game while looking out on the field and not seeing Christian. God I hope he is with you, please send some kind
of sign.
